"Come on, you fuck!"
"Accommodate, motherfucker!"
I hear myself saying these words while doing the light tube quite a bit these days. Lately what I've been seeing are two images laying on top of one another--the lazy one clear and accommodated for; the fixing image is a little blurry. I want the fixing image to become clear. I clench my fists and strain my brain, trying to get it to accommodate. Then I try to relax and use pure consciousness to accommodate the fixing image. I try to distribute my awareness so that both images can be accommodated while fusing.
Interestingly, by doing this, I'm repositioning my awareness, or consciousness so that it is behind both eyes. It is interesting because this is the way that a binocularly normal person is. The consciousness is perceived to be behind both eyes. So it seems that this final task that I have to do, which is getting my accommodation\vergence mechanism on the same page, is also the same task as making the shift in where my perceived consciousness resides.
Today's session wasn't particularly brutal--it was challenging, but it wasn't painful like the sessions from yesterday where there was a lot of intense resistance against the hypertropia. It was mainly effort to force accommodation while fusing.
Saccades went well. They were the best yet, especially around the eight minute mark.
I doubt I'll have stereoscopic vision this week like I previously said that I hoped I would. I'm hoping sometime before session #100. The cyclodeviation is a real tormentor.
Hi Andreas,
ReplyDeleteI don't know if you had a chance to check out Dr. Berne's book yet, but he is all about using light and relaxing the eyes. You are making great progress but maybe trying too hard?????
I am still trying to connect with Heather, and am trying to find the Adult Vision Facebook group, but am not sure which one it is. Can you help with that....
Thanks....I am rooting for you!
Lynn
https://www.facebook.com/groups/409530845760880/
ReplyDeleteI wonder whether this link works for you.
If it doesn't take you to the group, search for Vision Therapy for Adults in the Facebook search box. It's a closed group, so you have to have to get approved. I can't imagine why there would be any problems with that, however.
Hi Andreas,
ReplyDeleteThanks! I found it an sent a message to Heather a few days ago and haven't heard back yet. I did not join, so the message went to her folder. I asked her to e-mail me and gave her my address. Can you message her that I am trying to reach her?
Your Tetris post was interesting and I went to Michael's site to download it.
I have a ? If you just look at the light does it hurt?
I am hoping that you get stereo soon!
Lynn
What's your name in Facebook? I'm not seeing a Lynn in the group. Try to contact me within Facebook.
DeleteI didn't join because I am not an adult doing vision therapy.....do you think they would let me join? I went on using my older daughter's account....Katie and asked Heather to contact me at my e=mail which I gave her.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the Tetris info....we downloaded it an Tay is playing it for 5 minutes several times a day. It is hard but he is doing it.
Yes, I'm pretty sure they'll let you in. She might ask you questions, as to your condition, but if you explain that you have a five year old with strabismus, I'm sure they'll let you in.
DeleteAs for the Tetris--make sure you get the uncheatable version. You can get it here:
https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/12873/javascript-tetris-master%20%281%29.zip
Just extract the zip, and then run the index.html. This particular version is good, because it is uncheatable. It forces you to use both eyes. In the small number of days that I've been doing this, I've noticed significant improvement in my vision.
Hey Andreas,
ReplyDeleteTHANKS! I downloaded the one on Michael's site and I think it is the no cheating version. It is hard even for someone with no eye problem. Tay is 13 so he can play it but only for 5-10 minutes at a time at least for now.
Good luck!
Lynn