Saturday, June 17, 2017

Opening the door to Narnia

I made an adjustment to the regimen.

I'm now doing 20 minutes of fixation cards.  Also, I've changed the way I do the fixation cards.  It's a little hard to explain but here goes.

I'm not focusing on the in-between between fixing with the right eye vs with the left.  It is a very odd sensation, because that moment between changing eyes is done almost without me being aware of it.  What I'm going to try and do is keep switching between the eyes slowly as possible, and train my ability to detect the switch, and just go slower and slower until I find the point at which both eyes are under my command.

It's so weird because the targets are red and green, and it switches between red and green without my awareness, even though I'm triggering it and willing for it to happen.  Vision therapy can definitely be trippy, and sort of borderline philosophical (who's doing what?  What is the I?  What am I?) practice.

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That's the card I'm working with.  You see that dirt on the middle right bottom?  That's oil from my fingers from having used this same card for around a year for about 15 minutes per day.  That's about 92 hours of holding that sheet.

Hopefully as I get closer to that inbetween state, I can stay there, become sensitive that that new place, and keep enlargening the door so that I can eventually walk through.

Sunday, June 11, 2017

Using less prism again

I'm fairly certain that I'm making progress.  I am noticing more depth in Vivid Vision.  My eyes are aligning.  I just wish things would move quicker.

I am now operating under the idea that fusion should not require much effort.  Now when I'm doing the fixation cards, after I've been using the seven diopter prism for a while it gets to the point where it's easier to get fusion if I use less prism.  This, I think, is because the fixation card exercise practices fusion, and my brain then tries to continue that practice when looking at things in the world.  This, of course, doesn't involve prism, so the result is that the brain gets used to no prism a bit so when I go back to the exercise later with seven diopter prism, there's less need for so much.  As a result, over time with doing this exercise, I need less and less.

Now I'm using just four, but it's a legitimate four--unless something happens and I have to move back in order to get effortless fusion.

So yeah, things are moving along I suppose.  I really have been noticing some depth changes, and decreased suppression, especially when looking at bottles on desks, or the books on my bookcase.  I am noticing the input more and more.  I'll do this for a couple more months, ride it out, get as much out of it as possible, and then re-adjust if need be.