I took a four day break from vision therapy. I went on vacation to Miami with my girlfriend.
It was interesting. Sometimes I notice changes in my vision when I lack sleep, or something jars my nervous system. For instance, on the day that I left for Miami I slept for like two hours so that I could make the jet because it departed at six am. I remember on the flight I didn't have any thing to do or read, so I was looking around on the plane the entire time, playing with my vision. I noticed that my left eye was 'on', more or less the entire time. It was pretty damn cool. Still had diplopia and whatnot, but not a whole lot. The spread of the double images wasn't bad. It was the feeling, and the awareness that I had of the eyes being on that I found enthralling. It felt different and I did my best to hold onto it.
Today was the first day that I did vision therapy since last Wednesday. I noticed improvement in both the fixation cards and the Brock String. I noticed quite a bit more depth with the Brock String.
The fixation cards are getting better. The change in the accommodation differences is getting more manageable. It seems like the accommodation improves quite a lot toward the end of the 12 minutes. I think one technique that appears to be working is fixing mostly with the left eye, since the right eye oddly stays well accommodated on the target. When I bring the card closer, accommodation on one of the targets breaks down, but by fixing hard on the left eye, I can get them both very damn near close to perfect accommodation. This technique seems to help stretch the ability for my eyes to accommodate in synchrony.
I am again getting excited. Vision therapy is nothing if not a roller coaster of emotions. Up, down, confused, excited, dejected, enthralled, depressed, and sanguine all over again.
I found out recently that Davina Klatsky died. She's someone I met from Vision Therapy for Adults, and who joined DIY Vision therapy (both strabismus Facebook groups). It's so sad to hear. She was a sweet, but tortured lady. I forget all of the details, but I think she suffered a developmental disorder, which resulted in an asymmetry of her body. She had a lot of complications in her health, strabismus being among the symptoms of those complications. She was extremely self-conscious about her unique appearance, which one presumes was a result of the developmental disorder. I thought she looked fine. Her posts were, from what a remember, a bit frenetic, despairing, and angry about the lack of help available for people with strabismus. Like I said, I got the impression that she really was a tortured soul.
But yeah. I wasn't in her shoes. Life can be brutal. One can only speculate what it must have been like to be Davina. Nonetheless, I liked her a lot; she was a sweet lady. She was one of us. May she rest in peace.