- 20 minutes of Columns: around 14 minutes on the regular Column sheet working on motor ability, and for the other six minutes I focus on the star sheet and work on my peripheral vision
- Ten minutes of Bouncy and saccades combined
- 40 minutes of light tube
I just started cycling through the filters again. I had used the magenta Alpha Delta filters for a long freaking time, and now I'm on Mu Upsilon. I noticed some change today as a result. It's all very incremental, but I am noticing the changes almost every day--certainly every week. I can't help but think that I wasted a lot of time by not getting contact lenses a long time ago. If I have an accommodation insufficiency (my doctor's notes from when I was a toddler indicate that I had some 'modest hyperopia'), it's small. But every bit should help. I can't help but think that the reason this has all taken me so long is because I've been plowing through several problems all at once, such as eccentric fixation and accommodation insufficiency, and I'm slowly fixing these problems with my exercises. The plan is for me to get prescribed lenses by an optometrist next week.
What else... yeah, I've just been pondering a bit about my light tube exercises and how to do them, since 'how to do Syntonics' is a question that often pops up. The answer you hear is often 'just stare into the light'. My answer is more complicated and involves words like 'feedback'. I am definitely of the opinion that simply looking into the light wouldn't have had much benefit for me. It's been useful to me as a feedback device primarily, and then perhaps all of the syntonicky stuff secondarily.
I'd talked a bit about it in previous entries about not allowing the motor neurons to let go of the eyeball, while keeping the lazy eye's image engaged by the brain. The way you know that the motor neurons are engaged on the eyeball is that you can feel the muscles on the eye. It's somewhat unpleasant and can be stressful. But I think it's a feeling to hold onto. I think ultimately by not letting go, I'll get rid of the driftage which is a result of allowing the motor neurons to let go of the eyeball. The way you know that your brain is engaging the lazy eye's image is brightness. When the scene is particularly bright, it means that you're suppressing less, and using more of the lazy eye's input than you are when the scene is dimmer. For me at least, especially when doing the light tube, this is something that I've learned to do consciously. When I consciously unsuppress, it gets brighter, and it is associated with a particular feeling. It's almost like flexing a muscle. When I think about that feeling and take command of that feeling, I've found that I can amplify it. I think this is an avenue to explore.