Man, it feels like a lot is happening. Pandemic. Civil unrest. My vision coming online. Learning a fuckload of interesting new things at my job. My brain certainly has quite a bit to keep itself busy.
I just noticed things are very bright, is all. And I know what that is. It's both eyes coming online simultaneously. At the end of the day now I'm exhausted, despite having slept great last night. Also, things look a lot straighter. Stereo cues are sharpening. I remember playing Half-Life: Alyx last night. There was a shelf with a bunch of things on it. Cups, cans, tools. I remember being up close, looking at them. Noticing I wasn't seeing mere renderings. I was seeing space between the objects. It is quite awesome. And frankly, in this moment I'm sort of grateful that this is not happening all at once. I get to see the improvement. Check in. See what's changed. It's great.
As said in previous blogs, my vision therapy is now kind of on autopilot: things are now improving by themselves--automatically--now that the proper habits have been established.
But thinking about what's going on under the hood--I know a lot is going on in my brain in the meantime. I am tired quite a bit, particularly at the end of the day. And lately, frankly, I've been up and down a lot. Almost a type of bipolar, although that's probably wrong. Like on Sunday I just felt like shit for no apparent reason. Like, really down in the dumps. And then on Monday it was gone. I mean, when you change the architecture of your brain, you can't know with precision what impact you're going to have on what it does.
I just need to follow the road. Can't wait to see what happens next.
Interesting reading about your visual progress. Has it affected your artistic abilities at all?
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