Yeah, things are going well right now

 Quite a bit of progress over the previous week.  It's hard to explain, but I feel like progress is very real now.  Pedal to the metal.

What's happening now

I think what's doing most of the work is the anti-suppression exercises I'm doing.  I've mentioned it in other entries, but briefly, it's Game-Blyopia, which uses red/green filter glasses.  Under them, I have +1 diopter reading glasses with the lens popped out on the left side.  For maybe 2-3 weeks I used +1.5, and I think that was a mistake.  The difference in the size of the image on each side was too different.  When I switched to +1.0, I noticed the difference.  

And it is making a huge difference.  It feels like it's all coming together.  So, my theory is that I had very strong suppression, because for most of my life I never had double vision.  My brain adapted exceedingly well to strabismus.  That made life easier for then.  But it also means that I have an especially large amount of work to do now.  Fortunately, I think I have all the pieces in place, and I just have to keep my pedal on the metal and undo the suppression with my anti-suppression exercises.  

I've been toying with the idea of doing more Brock String to work on mobility, but I kinda already do it by doing neighborhood walks and cruising around on my OneWheel.  Can't hurt.  I have the string already, may need to create another acrylic concentric ring-type deal. 

Getting closer.

 It is a slow.  But I'm making gradual progress.  I don't think I have to make any changes to the regimen.   

So I did make one change, which is when I do Game-Blyopia, I switched from 1.5 diopter glass to 1.0 diopter reading glass (I poked the lens out of the right eye).  Change is indeed coming.  I'm taking it one week at a time.

Everything else is pretty similar.  I do notice the double images are coming together when I look at perspective lines (like tile grout and road markings).  Objective markers are indeed coming together.  It's retarded how long I've kept at this.  At the moment, there's really nothing to do, but keep doing what I'm doing and keep making check-ins periodically.

It's hard to imagine I have much more to go

 I am dying here.  When is this going to be over?  I'm sooo close.  I'm still making fast progress, but WHEN IS THIS GOING TO BE OVER?  I'm so close I can taste it.  It's killing me.  It's like... how much more can I progress until I'm finally over?  It's like... Zeno's Paradox from hell.  Grrr...

I am damn close *crosses fingers*

 I've made some recent adjustments to my routine.  I am not prepared to talk publicly about everything I'm doing.  But here are the other things I've been doing.  

I'd been doing a lot of stuff with focusing on the brain, and strengthening the weak right eye.  I made good progress for a long while, but then it kind of stalled.  I realized then that I had to tend to the farsightedness on the right eye.  I have a bunch of 1x magnification reading glasses.  I popped the lens out of the left side, so the right eye would have bigger input for the Columns exercise.  That made a big difference.  

Then when I was done doing Columns, I would put on my red/green filter glasses and play 2048 and Snake games on Game-Blyopia.  I noticed a big improvement on the results.  

One thing that's really weird is that it feels like using the magnification on the right eye seems to have made the right eye stronger very quickly--like--its ability to focus on close-up objects.  

However, now because of the +1 lens on the right eye, the size of close-up objects isn't quite the same, so I bought some +.5 reading glasses.  Then I popped out the lens on the left side, and now the close-up objects are about the same size.  

So... now I've been using this kit, and wow, I think the brain likes it.  It feels like I'm damn close--like I may be days away from fusion.   The question is this: do I use +.5 magnification or +1 magnification?  I think +.5 may be the way to go, but the +1 may have increased the strength of the eye quicker because it resulted in a bigger impression on the retina.  But I think equivalency between the size of the images is what the brain really wants to see, so I'm going to stick with that for a while.  

I've been playing Snake a lot lately.  The cyan/green food... I've been focusing on it, really softening the gaze.  It feels like I'm on the right track.  I'm pretty damn excited.  

Yeah, this is different

 I'm excited.  It does seem like I can kind of control both eyes now, and use them both at will simultaneously.   This new ability seems to have happened at the same time that the weak eye was strengthened.  It feels like now I'm in a self-reinforcing situation where progress is happening semi-automatically.  It does feel good when I use the right eye.  The channel is opening.  Things are getting bigger and stronger with that eye.  It feels like I don't have that much more time to go.  I should maybe achieve my goals in a few months or less, going by objective markers.  Just a few more weeks and check back.

 I am sure that the cold plunges, red light therapy, clean diet, and nicotine are helping.  Those things really are a killer combination, though you do have to be mindful of the stress that they put on the body.  

Pretty significant step change

 Yeah, my vision saw a lot of improvement over the previous day.  I'm about to do some VR to see how much it's changed.  There are a few changes I've recently noticed.  One is that it feels like I can control the right (weak) eye at the same time as the other.  The other is when I look at the lines on the road when I'm driving.   The double images are closer to one another.  Reduced diplopia.  

Progress is fast.  I just underestimated how much work there is to do.  As long as progress is fast (and it seems to be), I'm happy.

It does feel different, I should say.   Like... that's one of the things I've noticed when doing all this crap.  You work, work, work, and then you take a break and you take notice about how things have changed.  You realize that you have a choice as to what to do and where you want to go.  I think it's these moments, where you progress to a certain point, and then if you pay attention, you notice that you have a decision to make--you have to decide--those are the moments where it all happens.  But you have to pay attention so you can realize that you are being offered a choice.