To soften one's gaze

 About four days or so ago, I was playing PavlovVR, and was enjoying myself immensely--not so much from the game itself, but by how much more 'on' my eyes were.  I was definitely picking up a lot more visual information than normal, and had a much greater sense of depth and immersion.  I'm becoming a much more visual animal.  I was just noticing that there were certain things, certain details, like birds in the sky, or someone's facial expression, that I would have never noticed before. 

I was moving around, noticing that I could pay attention through both eyes, it suddenly occurred to me what my vision therapist told me to do about 13 years ago.  In some of my exercises, she told me to 'soften' my gaze.  I kind of knew what she meant.  But now I really know what it means.  It's easing effort--and really taking attention away from any singular source of input--more like easing back and noticing input.  This takes the strain off, and I found it made my eyes do their thing more naturally, and without effort.  It's kind of funny.  I was thinking about using my eyes in a productive way, and then I naturally found myself softening my gaze, as prescribed my vision therapist all those years ago. 

I can feel big changes coming

 My vision feels very different as of late.  I'm not sure how this is going to pan out, but the changes are great, and I'm enjoying it.  

It definitely feels like everything I did before cold exposure was just me becoming familiar and intimate with my visual system, but then everything afterward was action, and actual change-making.  I know that's not true.  My visual system did change quite a lot before cold exposure (B.C.E.).  But things have accelerated, for sure.  I am excite.

Expecting perceptual shift soon

 I've talked in previous entries how there's a little dance I notice between subjective and objective markers of improvement, and that there doesn't seem to be a 1:1 correlation between the two.  Like if I see objective improvement is convergence and my ability to lock on objects with both eyes, it doesn't necessarily correlate with increased brightness, perceived detail, or depth.  However, they do seem to track each other imperfectly.  So if I notice a ton of objective improvement, and I don't yet have the corresponding subjective improvement, I know I am 'due' for subjective improvement and changes in qualia in the near-term.  That describes my current situation pretty well.  I am due for some changes.  That's kind of where VR comes in.  For some reason, the stereo cues are so artificially ramped up in VR that I can more easily gauge where I am on the subjective side.

Powering through aniseikonia

 Man... messing with VR has been wild lately.  It does appear to be doing a lot of work as of late.  I'm noticing depth more and more with objects further out.  I can definitely notice depth with the rear of the gun (as you hold it out in front of you).  But I'm now noticing it more and more with other objects.  Things are definitely changing.  

I'd mentioned in previous entries that the power of the input for each eye is not the same, and that text size and clarity is different for each eye.  It's actually hard to say which eye it was that looks better for close-up objects at the moment.   I think it's probably left.  That's how much things have changed.

I think that's one of the things I've noticed as I improve generally, there is more equality between the two eyes.  How is that happening?  Is it because because they're being used equally, and so their strength becomes somewhat equal through equal use?  Or is it because of the underlying neurology?  For instance, perhaps the optical power isn't changing for the eyes themselves, but the signal being received in the visual cortex is changing as a result of stronger, more robust neural pathway. 

That's kind of the crazy thing about the eyes.  A lot can be done in software.  The brain is a bit different from a computer, because with computers there's a hard line between software and hardware.  With the brain, it's all wetware, which physically changes as you make changes to your program.