Tuesday, November 23, 2021

It seems I'm now noticing weekly qualitative improvements in vision

 Still no idea of when it's coming, but it does seem like things are accelerating.  I am noticing more stereo in VR.  I am also noticing quite a bit of improvement and, indeed, some stereo cues in real life.  These changes seem to be happening on a weekly basis now.  I know what I'm doing now, and this, no doubt, seems to have accelerated progress a lot.   The keto diet thing too... on days when I'm in strong ketosis, yeah.  Things really pop out--not as in stereo yet--but as in things are bigger, brighter, and clearer.  There are times when things get so bright that it's overwhelming.  It almost feels as though someone is turning up the power on the dimmer in the room. 

Saturday, November 6, 2021

My grasp on my vision is growing

 My grasp on my vision is something I've been talking about a lot lately.  But my grasp on my vision  continues to improve.  

It seems there are two aspects to my vision quality now.  There's the quality of the state my eyes are in when I am not applying effort or attention.  Then there's the quality of the state my eyes are in when I am  applying effort or attention.

One of the ways I know that my vision is continually improving is what my eyes do when I am not applying effort or attention to my visual system.  That is, after all, what this is all about: training my visual system to the point where proper binocular vision occurs automatically and without effort.  

So two things are happening, which occur as my mental representations of my visual system get stronger.  One is that binocular posture requires less and less effort to maintain.  The other is that my default (no effort) produces much better vision and less visual conflict.

Indeed, I am noticing this because maintaining binocular posture is becoming so easy for me that I'm almost able to do it while I'm doing other things, like walking around, doing work, and playing video games, or watching TV.

And this is coinciding with improvement in vision as I play games in VR (stereo cues are very strong in VR--moreso than in real life).  I am getting more and more glimpses of what stereopsis is going to be like: especially with objects that are close up (such as the iron sights I use in a game I play called Pavlov VR).  The impression that I'm getting is that it will be: a. overwhelming, and b. completely nuts.  I have no idea how people with normal stereo vision are able to go about their lives not thinking to themselves 'HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT'. 

With the mental representations I've dutifully built over time, there is less mental tax on squashing my vision down while I'm doing other things.  So now I can do both, and I'm able to do 'vision therapy' for much larger portions of my day than before.  It's just nuts that even now that I know what I'm doing, it's still requiring as much work as it is.  

 What else... I was also thinking... one of the questions I've had a long time ago is now being answered.  The visual system doesn't 'click-in' with vision therapy--as in, mechanically.  When hearing stories about people fixing their vision, you hear about a moment when 3d suddenly pops in. Basically, what happens is a gestalt shift.  A shift in the perception of the Necker cube.  Their visual input improves to the point where the brain is now able to interpret the input as 3d, instead of as flat pictures.  I think that has no correspondence to an actual sudden mechanical clicking in.  I think what's going to happen is that my visual system will experience a smooth improvement in mechanics for the entire duration of vision therapy.  THEN...at some point where the visual input is at a certain point, there may be a moment when the brain suddenly flips.  And based on my reading of the accounts of others, it may flip back and forth a bit.  Also, even after it's flipped, it will continue to improve.  

So yeah, this is a very exciting time in my life. 

Monday, November 1, 2021

I saw a quantum leap in vision quality over the weeknd

 Pretty substantial changes, particularly on the periphery.  Also, beginning to notice more depth with upclose objects.  The VR experience is getting more intense as well.  VR is becoming great practice, and I really know how to adjust things in realtime.  There is quite a bit work remaining, but I know exactly what I'm doing now, and I feel like the last legs of this journey are going to go very fast.  There are some things that I did over the weekend that I can't talk about yet, but which I may eventually reveal, but which I think may be valuable in stereopsis recovery.  It's an extremely exciting time. I'm getting so close.  I'm surprised to experience so much improvement in vision before actually achieving my goals.  It is a bit frightening to think about how intense my vision may eventually become.