This session seemed pretty normal, but every new session is different, especially when it's the next day. I think the double images were pretty close to one another when I fudged. That's one of the indicators of progress which I mentioned previously. Another indicator of progress, I believe is when I put both of the images on top of one another and I compare the accommodation--how sharp am I able to get both of the images when I am looking at both of them sharply? That seems to have improved quite a bit today.
I've also been experimenting with the fudging method--by inducing double vision by going eso instead of exo with the lazy eye. I seem to get a similar result. I can see the accommodation change as I change vergence.
Saccades went well--surprisingly well since it is still morning for me. It's always around the 8-10 minute mark that the accuracy really goes into high gear. This is a very positive indicator to me. Anyway, I won't get into it that much more. Things are going well. Great.
Wednesday, August 7, 2013
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
#59 session
Yeah, things went well. The double images this morning were pretty close to one another. Last night, I spent the entire time fighting the hypertropia. It was nice. This morning there was very little discernible fighting against the hypertropia, although it is my suspicion that it is always there in some capacity. I did a good amount of fudging. I did find that immediately after I fudged a bit, that the brain engaged the lazy eye more and then I started to fight the hypertropia more than before.
Saccades went really well. By the way that the saccades are going it feels as though I could be a few weeks left. After about five or seven minutes of saccades, I find that I start to land directly on targets with no real need to adjust. When I saccade to the bottom right there is still a little bit of lag, although when I do the saccades in the afternoon and at night time the lag is minimal. It's just a nice workout. I forgot to mentally occupy the lazy eye this time around when I did the saccades.
It's funny observing how my vision is different when I go about my day. I am now aware of the two different ways of seeing simultaneously and I can sort of imagine what stereopsis is like now. I remember that Susan Barry mentioned somewhere that when she improved her vision her stereo ability began with objects that were close to her and then as she got better, her stereo ability would function on increasingly more distance objects. Well, right now as I am typing, that distance has gone to my keyboard and my work area... so the speakers and keyboard and toothpaste thingy are pretty depthy looking to me. Anyway. So. I got that going for me. Which is nice.
Saccades went really well. By the way that the saccades are going it feels as though I could be a few weeks left. After about five or seven minutes of saccades, I find that I start to land directly on targets with no real need to adjust. When I saccade to the bottom right there is still a little bit of lag, although when I do the saccades in the afternoon and at night time the lag is minimal. It's just a nice workout. I forgot to mentally occupy the lazy eye this time around when I did the saccades.
It's funny observing how my vision is different when I go about my day. I am now aware of the two different ways of seeing simultaneously and I can sort of imagine what stereopsis is like now. I remember that Susan Barry mentioned somewhere that when she improved her vision her stereo ability began with objects that were close to her and then as she got better, her stereo ability would function on increasingly more distance objects. Well, right now as I am typing, that distance has gone to my keyboard and my work area... so the speakers and keyboard and toothpaste thingy are pretty depthy looking to me. Anyway. So. I got that going for me. Which is nice.
Monday, August 5, 2013
#58 session
Today's session went goodly. There was a moderate amount of fudging, and also quite a bit of fighting against the hypertropia. Accommodation for each eye is still significantly out of sync. If the out-of-syncness of the accommodation of each eye is an indication of how much farther I have to go, I'd guess that I'm about two months away from my goals. Yikes!! That would put me at session #118!!! Of course, hopefully things move a bit faster than that.
Instead of fudging, I tried doing something a little more hardcore than fudging--that is, laying each image on top of one another, and then trying to straight up force accommodation on each eye. That may be the last final step once the out-of-syncness comes to a point that is tolerable.
Saccades went well. Every day they're better.
Instead of fudging, I tried doing something a little more hardcore than fudging--that is, laying each image on top of one another, and then trying to straight up force accommodation on each eye. That may be the last final step once the out-of-syncness comes to a point that is tolerable.
Saccades went well. Every day they're better.
Sunday, August 4, 2013
#57 session
Today I switched to the final Mu Epsilon filters. Who knows where I'm going to be by the end of the week. I'm really curious because right now things are pretty depthy and strong. Everything is coming together as it should. It will likely be another month or so, because I still have double vision and I have to implement a pretty good amount of conscious control to keep things single. But who knows... maybe things will snap into place this week. The small amount of floating that my lazy eye is doing will suddenly cease, and the lazy-eye image will fuse, and I will have a single vision of the world. I imagine that it will be a jarring experience. It's hard to imagine that it won't be.
Anyway--light tube exercises lately have been quite a bit of correcting for the hypertropia that exists. I haven't had a proper chance to do a lot of fudging. This morning and afternoon I did only a slight amount of fudging. I did a bit more fudging just now. Things to appear differently now for sure. As of this writing I feel significantly closer to having reached my goals than ever before.
I just hope I didn't fuck anything up by doing this fudging. Like... maybe someone who knows something about the eye will read this someday and gasp in horror at the things I do with my eyes. I suppose I'm a little worried that I might have developed some faux foveas. But oh well. Regardless, my vision has never been better than it is now, and I'll just continue down this road and see where it takes me. It sure is a lonely journey.
Oh yeah... saccades were awesome. The accuracy was quite good. Next time I'll put in more conscious effort to try and occupy the lazy eye so that I don't try to hit the target, but instead occupy the eye and let it hit the target naturally--you know... in the way a binocularly normal person would.
Anyway--light tube exercises lately have been quite a bit of correcting for the hypertropia that exists. I haven't had a proper chance to do a lot of fudging. This morning and afternoon I did only a slight amount of fudging. I did a bit more fudging just now. Things to appear differently now for sure. As of this writing I feel significantly closer to having reached my goals than ever before.
I just hope I didn't fuck anything up by doing this fudging. Like... maybe someone who knows something about the eye will read this someday and gasp in horror at the things I do with my eyes. I suppose I'm a little worried that I might have developed some faux foveas. But oh well. Regardless, my vision has never been better than it is now, and I'll just continue down this road and see where it takes me. It sure is a lonely journey.
Oh yeah... saccades were awesome. The accuracy was quite good. Next time I'll put in more conscious effort to try and occupy the lazy eye so that I don't try to hit the target, but instead occupy the eye and let it hit the target naturally--you know... in the way a binocularly normal person would.
Saturday, August 3, 2013
#56 session
This session went alright. Man this shit feels like it's moving slowly, even though that's not the case. I'm just impatient. I didn't notice anything particularly different about the light tube session from yesterday... although last night's session was like the previous night's session. I was fighting the hypertropia like crazy. I hardly did any fudging whatsoever. So stuff is still happening. When I fudged today, I noticed that the images were pretty far away when both images were accommodated (sharp).
Regardless--this is the last week I have with these Alpha Delta filters. I will be going back to Mu Epsilon and then I will be done with my second round of syntonics. One week at a time, I have to remind myself. My vision is improving. All I do is ask myself--'has my vision improved in the past week?'--if the answer is yes, then I keep doing what I'm doing. If not, then I switch things up a bit. I do believe that my current regimen is probably not going to change until I've reached my goals.
Saccades went well. Lately every saccades session has been noticeably better than the previous. I think once my lazy eye finally develops locking ability, that will represent a sudden and huge change in my vision. As of right now, the lazy-eye image drifts around a bit. I think that the fact that it's not yet locking means that for the most part there's still quite a bit of conflicting input. Once the lazy eye locks on, it will become fully powered on and I will suddenly begin to intercept a LOT more visual information. It would be great if that happened soon. I have noticed that since I've bumped up to doing three sessions instead of two, that progress has sped up. It does seem to make a difference.
My hypertropia appears to be almost gone when I look in the mirror. It's still there, but it's almost gone. It's truly remarkable.
Regardless--this is the last week I have with these Alpha Delta filters. I will be going back to Mu Epsilon and then I will be done with my second round of syntonics. One week at a time, I have to remind myself. My vision is improving. All I do is ask myself--'has my vision improved in the past week?'--if the answer is yes, then I keep doing what I'm doing. If not, then I switch things up a bit. I do believe that my current regimen is probably not going to change until I've reached my goals.
Saccades went well. Lately every saccades session has been noticeably better than the previous. I think once my lazy eye finally develops locking ability, that will represent a sudden and huge change in my vision. As of right now, the lazy-eye image drifts around a bit. I think that the fact that it's not yet locking means that for the most part there's still quite a bit of conflicting input. Once the lazy eye locks on, it will become fully powered on and I will suddenly begin to intercept a LOT more visual information. It would be great if that happened soon. I have noticed that since I've bumped up to doing three sessions instead of two, that progress has sped up. It does seem to make a difference.
My hypertropia appears to be almost gone when I look in the mirror. It's still there, but it's almost gone. It's truly remarkable.
Friday, August 2, 2013
#55 session
This session went quite well. It is morning, so it's not as good as it will be in four\five hour's time. What is there to say about it? Umm, I don't know. There was no difference from yesterday. I fudged--took breaks--fudged some more until the buzzer went off. I am noticing more and more than when I look out into the world that the double images are getting closer to one another. So I guess I'll leave it at that for now.
Saccades went quite well. I daresay they were again the best they'd been yet.
There was something I wanted to say, but I forget what. Shit. Maybe it'll come back later. Tschuess.
Edit:
ok, it just came to me. So last night when I did the light tube, I did very little fudging. The main thing that I was focused on was correcting for the hypertropia. It was constant and it was one of the most strenuous sessions that I had since session #15--or around those parts. But it wasn't unpleasant--rather, it was quite nice to have that fight again. I had talked about what I think is going on back in session #15 or around those parts. Basically what happened is the strenuousness of the exercises would continually vacillate. One day it would be a lot of work; the next day it would hardly be any work. What I think is happening is that as I continue vision therapy and make progress the brain engages the lazy eye more and more so that that what hypertropia is there (at this point, what little hypertropia is left) is really bothersome to the brain. Then when I do the light tube exercise, I fight to correct it more. The fighting usually results in less permanent hypertropia for the next time, so that the next time I do light tube exercises, the amount of hypertropia which is there is tolerable to the brain so that the session is much easier than the previous exercise. A few more sessions down the road, the brain will engage the eye more and so the hypertropia is again noticeable. So it keeps going back and forth in spurts.
Back in the session #15 days this vascillation would happen with high frequency--very two to three exercises I would strenuously fight against the hypertropia. Well, that doesn't happen too much these days. I am always fighting the hypertropia to some extent with my light tube exercises, but yesterday it was bananas. It was different and very strong. It's really interesting\exciting. It was surprising because I didn't expect to have to fight so much considering how little hypertropia remains. But it's good.
Saccades went quite well. I daresay they were again the best they'd been yet.
There was something I wanted to say, but I forget what. Shit. Maybe it'll come back later. Tschuess.
Edit:
ok, it just came to me. So last night when I did the light tube, I did very little fudging. The main thing that I was focused on was correcting for the hypertropia. It was constant and it was one of the most strenuous sessions that I had since session #15--or around those parts. But it wasn't unpleasant--rather, it was quite nice to have that fight again. I had talked about what I think is going on back in session #15 or around those parts. Basically what happened is the strenuousness of the exercises would continually vacillate. One day it would be a lot of work; the next day it would hardly be any work. What I think is happening is that as I continue vision therapy and make progress the brain engages the lazy eye more and more so that that what hypertropia is there (at this point, what little hypertropia is left) is really bothersome to the brain. Then when I do the light tube exercise, I fight to correct it more. The fighting usually results in less permanent hypertropia for the next time, so that the next time I do light tube exercises, the amount of hypertropia which is there is tolerable to the brain so that the session is much easier than the previous exercise. A few more sessions down the road, the brain will engage the eye more and so the hypertropia is again noticeable. So it keeps going back and forth in spurts.
Back in the session #15 days this vascillation would happen with high frequency--very two to three exercises I would strenuously fight against the hypertropia. Well, that doesn't happen too much these days. I am always fighting the hypertropia to some extent with my light tube exercises, but yesterday it was bananas. It was different and very strong. It's really interesting\exciting. It was surprising because I didn't expect to have to fight so much considering how little hypertropia remains. But it's good.
Thursday, August 1, 2013
#54 session
This session appeared the same as that of the previous day. I should mention that because I'm currently in the process of getting employment, I've bumped up my sessions to three times a day. I've been doing light tube three times per day and saccades twice a day. This is because I currently have more time, and my excitement is building, and I feel like I am in a place that I haven't been at yet and I just want to see this through.
When I fudge, I pull the images closer to one another. After a while, they get close, but it seems hard to get them both sharp. Then I give it a break and look at the images softly for a while. Then I try again, and then I'm able to get the images sharp, but they remain far away again. Then I fudge again. This resting period can be around 20 seconds.
Saccades went well. There's nothing to complain about.
Also, I just looked at myself in the mirror. My eyes look pretty damn awesome at the time of this writing. The vertical misalignment is almost completely gone.
When I fudge, I pull the images closer to one another. After a while, they get close, but it seems hard to get them both sharp. Then I give it a break and look at the images softly for a while. Then I try again, and then I'm able to get the images sharp, but they remain far away again. Then I fudge again. This resting period can be around 20 seconds.
Saccades went well. There's nothing to complain about.
Also, I just looked at myself in the mirror. My eyes look pretty damn awesome at the time of this writing. The vertical misalignment is almost completely gone.
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