Friday, August 20, 2021

It feels like I'm on the last stretch

 It definitely feels like things are suddenly really moving at a high speed.  After all this fucking time.  

Just noticing how different things suddenly are.  Make no mistake.  I may be months (or years) away, but all objective markers are at a better place than ever before.  One thing that I noticed, in particular today, is accommodation difference between the eyes for up-close objects--like... when reading text from my phone.  The double images are approaching parity--both in terms of power as well as clarity.  That's freaking nuts.  Gauging now, I think it may be another three months.  But man.  Wow.  Things are great over here.  I'm getting close to no longer having double vision when I read.  

Almost kinda miraculous that I'm not a bad reader.  A lot of people are surprised when they find out that I can read alright with double vision.  It's hard to explain.  It's all focus.  It really is a weird, but interesting thing to explore the relationships between vision and consciousness and focus.  The double vision is always there.  Kinda.  But only when I'm not reading/processing the words I'm reading. Like, it kind of goes away when I'm focused on the content of what I'm reading.  But then... suddenly it's back.  Yes, it's nuts.  But interesting. 

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