Loving my new vision

It's nice. 

I just got back from a long walk (two hours).  It was on my mind about how different my vision is now, compared to how it was before.  Like, even looking around, switching my gaze from one object to another.  I'm now able to keep the double images on top of each other all of the time.  

It's not true for every angle.  For instance, I still have diplopia when looking down.  And even with normal looking around, the diplopia is still constant.  Even looking at the screen as I type this, I have constant diplopia, but the double images are now on top of one another.  It is a little weird, because it's almost like two worlds laid on top of one another.  One is bobbing around a little.  But it is far less distracting than it used to be.  It's so nice to know that my eyes are basically working the way they should and that my brain is know being told that it no longer needs to suppress. 

It's quite nice.

Yep... ah!

Had a great day today.  

Man, it feels like a lot is happening.  Pandemic.  Civil unrest.  My vision coming online.  Learning a fuckload of interesting new things at my job.  My brain certainly has quite a bit to keep itself busy.

I just noticed things are very bright, is all.  And I know what that is. It's both eyes coming online simultaneously.  At the end of the day now I'm exhausted, despite having slept great last night.  Also, things look a lot straighter.  Stereo cues are sharpening.  I remember playing Half-Life: Alyx last night.  There was a shelf with a bunch of things on it.  Cups, cans, tools.  I remember being up close, looking at them.  Noticing I wasn't seeing mere renderings.  I was seeing space between the objects.  It is quite awesome.  And frankly, in this moment I'm sort of grateful that this is not happening all at once.  I get to see the improvement.  Check in.  See what's changed.  It's great.  

As said in previous blogs, my vision therapy is now kind of on autopilot: things are now improving by themselves--automatically--now that the proper habits have been established.  

But thinking about what's going on under the hood--I know a lot is going on in my brain in the meantime.  I am tired quite a bit, particularly at the end of the day.  And lately, frankly, I've been up and down a lot.  Almost a type of bipolar, although that's probably wrong.  Like on Sunday I just felt like shit for no apparent reason.  Like, really down in the dumps.  And then on Monday it was gone.  I mean, when you change the architecture of your brain, you can't know with precision what impact you're going to have on what it does.  

I just need to follow the road.  Can't wait to see what happens next.